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Building a nest on a shaky tree branch probably isn’t the smartest decision... at least that’s what most people would say. They say “solid ground; no sinking sand.”

At any point, a feather-light gust can cause a catasrophe.
But it can also inspire an attempt to make the foundation stronger.


Maybe he really didn’t want to do this... Neither did I. But, I wasn’t going to let life be given to me and then rejected. Because I chose to be open to new life, I have been asked to shed every piece of who I thought I was, who I think I am, and who I hoped he was.

Now, I am trying to pick up and clean up to see what’s left. what’s raw. what’s true. what’s worth life. what’s worth trying something new for. and what’s not...
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checking the structure, the cracks and shifts and filling in the gaps. (I’m sure it’s more to it than that). If we do not both go out and look at the                                  foundation,
only one of us willing to change, willing to look clearly at the foundation of the house we’re building a new family dynamic on. It must be solid ground, not sinking sand.
And these are things we should have thought about initially when coming into relationship together. Not when finding out that I’m pregnant because the foundation we’ve created is shaky. Now there’s a sense of desperateness [in me] to catch what is crumbling down right infront of our faces.

THANK YOU.                                                                                                                                                                             

  (Because it’s natural. It’s human.)